Second Annual Reason For The Ribbons Day

  Today was my second annual Reason for the Ribbons Day. Because I believe writing out the full, detailed story behind RfR would most likely do more harm than good, I will simply give this poem.

Ribbons, ribbons

Hide these fresh scars

Heal my heart and take this pain far

 

Far away from a tender mind

Conceal my fears and watch me die

Hold my hand while I wish for peace

Create this illusion of happiness

 

Ribbons, ribbons

You let me down

What you couldn't hide was seen, was found.

 

Ribbons, ribbons

Now remind me

Of everything I've done

What I've survived--where I've gone wrong

 

Seal my fate in the gates of Heaven

Ribbons, in remembrance of

The Hell they pulled me through.

~dated March, 2011

  Will you celebrate this day with me? May I always worship God, who has preserved me though I have been unfaithful.

When Suffering From A Mild Case Of Heartache...

...Try doing lots of math problems and watching Korean dramas. It works wonders, my friends.

Daisies&Autumn Sunsets

The smell of daisies in the cold air, and the golden rays of sunset on the deep red and soft orange and pink leaves. It's hard to believe that it's real. Sometimes I find it hard to believe anything beautiful is real, for that matter. But it is. Oh, it is so real! That is what makes my heart swell and beat faster. My breath catches inside my throat. My vision blurs with joyful tears, and the only response I can give is to smile. A thankful smile. I celebrate reality, because reality is where God is and beauty exists thereby. I am so imperfect... I am so guilty. I am so dirty: unclean and ugly. I will always need more beauty in my life. More God. More reality. I am in love with these.