Hello...

I'm excited for spring break. For some reason the notion of a complete break from school is kind of... Strange? I'm not sure why; it's not like all I ever do is school. But still, it's just going to be weird. I hope to get a lot done though. I have Project Titusville from Sunday to Wednesday. I was also wanting to do/finish a few projects I have in mind. And ice skating. :) Project Titusville is robbing me the pleasure of going with my band, which I'm not too happy about. Eh...

Today I was somewhere in between wanting to hug every one I saw and wanting to run away from every single person I know. So, in other words, it was a normal Thursday.

Brightside: I feel like I'm starting to finally belong.

Darkside: I know the feeling, and soon something's going to happen that will remind me of how replaceable I am--again.

I do care, but sometimes it just feels like no one really even wants me to.

Always fun to come to that realization. It's kind of scary with how pleasant being a hermit sounds to me.

" I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
 That I would see the goodness of the LORD
 In the land of the living. " -Ps. 27:13

As depressing as a Florida spring may be, I have had fun picking the flowers which ensue. They're like little kids running freely amidst a boring business meeting. :]

Thick As Thieves

' Follow deep in trance

Lost in a catatonic dance

Know no future

Damn the past

Blind, warm, ecstatic

Safe at last '

'We Hoped For the Best and Let Go of the Rest"

Today, I woke up.
From a dream. A lovely dream. Someone was playing me the song 'It Had To Be You' by Harry Connick Jr. Such a nice song. Such a nice dream...

And then, I got up.
I was humming the song. My family was grumpy. The usual morning grumpiness. It was okay though; I'm used to being the only bird chirping at 7:00 am. We were in a hurry to get out the door--more grumpiness. We arrived on time for my mom's appointment, but missed my first class all together. Even more grumpiness, and a little on my side too. I really do like Latin. But, there was nothing I could do, so I satisfied myself by dissecting two fish. It was icky, but we did it outside, which, even though I was shivering from the cold breeze, made the experience sort of actually enjoyable. When we were finished, I had no lunch, so I settled for wondering aimlessly, looking for my mother to beg food from. To my greatest pleasure, her and my brother had gone to Arby's and brought me back some food to snack on. Then, I picked flowers. Beautiful little flowers--the kind that remind you of orchids, but much more delicate. They were a lovely shade of lavender, which faded in the center to white. I picked a bouquet, and, after trying various different methods, finally managed to tie it with a long piece of grass.

I tried learning how to sign a new song, but we ran out of time. I volunteered in ASL 1, though. They took a test. While waiting for them to finish, I discovered that there are 19 hanging stars,13 door handles, 12 lights, 6 air vents, 5 light switches and 4 windows in the classroom. I helped someone with their presentation.

Then, I went home.
And back to sleep. I wasn't really tired. Actually, I think I slept about a quarter of the time I spent in my bed. I just thought. When I decided I should get up, I went on a run. 2 miles. I wanted it to be a sprint, but I wasn't feeling very motivated. It didn't turn out as well as I hoped. I ate dinner when I came home. Did the dishes, made cookies.

And now my day is nearing its death. I wish you all a good night. Don't have bad dreams, and wake up singing. You are more loved by this little girl than you will be by many of the people you will ever meet in the entirety of your life.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow...

Someday, I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far behind me,

Where troubles melt like lemon drops.

Away above the chimney tops:

That's where you'll find me.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Helloo! I know it's not Valentine's day quite yet, but I found this just now and thought I'd probably forget to post it on V-day anyway, so I might as well post it now. :)

It's a poem I wrote a while ago. Enjoy to the best of your ability:

After Eternity's End

Love me then,
Love me still,
Love me after eternity's end.

Never before,
Never again,
Never will I want anything more.

My life's direction,
My life's sweet reason,
My life's sole purpose and perfection.

More to me than anything else,
More than riches, more than silver, more than gold,
More to me than life itself.

You are the brightest shining star,
First to appear, last to dim;
You seem so close, but are yet so far.

I love you so;
I miss you, dear.
Our distance holds my only woe.

Promise me this,
Promise me now:
Promise you'll still love me

Even after eternity ends.

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Eh...? :P
Hope you all have a good Valentine's day, though! =D I have plans to go to Plato's Closet AND get the best cupcakes ever! :D Looking forward to it muchness. Also. I haven't asked him yet but I'm pretty sure my dog will be down with being my valentine this year. All the last years it's been my cat, but ya know. Dogs deserve a chance too. :P ;]

"Just Look On The Brightside, You're Roughly Six Feet Tall"

And in my case, extremely rough. xD



Dark Side: I deleted my facebook and have very little communication with the outside world(homeschoolers unite!)

Bright Side: I'm finally becoming the hermitess I've always dreamed of being!
Life goal #782--accomplished! =D

Dark Side: I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me.

Bright Side: This is great practice for my Samurai skills!

Dark Side: The full moon hid from me tonight.

Bright Side: It's only a matter of time before it starts doing that thing where it gets really low and red. Eep!

Dark Side: Tomorrow is Friday and I have no hopes of a good weekend.

Bright Side: No Biology! Thank you, Charles Darwin, for making such a stupid theory that no Biologist can think of any experiments that would help teach high schoolers about it. =D


That's all the depressing/stupidly cheerful material I can come up with at the moment.

I messed up my background, but I should be able to fix it over my Darwin-experiment-free weekend. ;)

Sleep tight, and don't let the bed bugs bite!

I hate you all! <3







(don't worry, i like some of you. sort of.)





(no, actually i like a lot of you.)








(Fine. I love you all. Happy?)

Yep.

Austrian Shepherdess has been added to my list of potential future carreers.