I'm excited for spring break. For some reason the notion of a complete break from school is kind of... Strange? I'm not sure why; it's not like all I ever do is school. But still, it's just going to be weird. I hope to get a lot done though. I have Project Titusville from Sunday to Wednesday. I was also wanting to do/finish a few projects I have in mind. And ice skating. :) Project Titusville is robbing me the pleasure of going with my band, which I'm not too happy about. Eh...
Today I was somewhere in between wanting to hug every one I saw and wanting to run away from every single person I know. So, in other words, it was a normal Thursday.
Brightside: I feel like I'm starting to finally belong.
Darkside: I know the feeling, and soon something's going to happen that will remind me of how replaceable I am--again.
I do care, but sometimes it just feels like no one really even wants me to.
Always fun to come to that realization. It's kind of scary with how pleasant being a hermit sounds to me.
" I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living. " -Ps. 27:13
As depressing as a Florida spring may be, I have had fun picking the flowers which ensue. They're like little kids running freely amidst a boring business meeting. :]
Thursday, March 24
Monday, March 21
Thick As Thieves
' Follow deep in trance
Lost in a catatonic dance
Know no future
Damn the past
Blind, warm, ecstatic
Safe at last '
Lost in a catatonic dance
Know no future
Damn the past
Blind, warm, ecstatic
Safe at last '
Thursday, March 3
'We Hoped For the Best and Let Go of the Rest"
Today, I woke up.
From a dream. A lovely dream. Someone was playing me the song 'It Had To Be You' by Harry Connick Jr. Such a nice song. Such a nice dream...
And then, I got up.
I was humming the song. My family was grumpy. The usual morning grumpiness. It was okay though; I'm used to being the only bird chirping at 7:00 am. We were in a hurry to get out the door--more grumpiness. We arrived on time for my mom's appointment, but missed my first class all together. Even more grumpiness, and a little on my side too. I really do like Latin. But, there was nothing I could do, so I satisfied myself by dissecting two fish. It was icky, but we did it outside, which, even though I was shivering from the cold breeze, made the experience sort of actually enjoyable. When we were finished, I had no lunch, so I settled for wondering aimlessly, looking for my mother to beg food from. To my greatest pleasure, her and my brother had gone to Arby's and brought me back some food to snack on. Then, I picked flowers. Beautiful little flowers--the kind that remind you of orchids, but much more delicate. They were a lovely shade of lavender, which faded in the center to white. I picked a bouquet, and, after trying various different methods, finally managed to tie it with a long piece of grass.
I tried learning how to sign a new song, but we ran out of time. I volunteered in ASL 1, though. They took a test. While waiting for them to finish, I discovered that there are 19 hanging stars,13 door handles, 12 lights, 6 air vents, 5 light switches and 4 windows in the classroom. I helped someone with their presentation.
Then, I went home.
And back to sleep. I wasn't really tired. Actually, I think I slept about a quarter of the time I spent in my bed. I just thought. When I decided I should get up, I went on a run. 2 miles. I wanted it to be a sprint, but I wasn't feeling very motivated. It didn't turn out as well as I hoped. I ate dinner when I came home. Did the dishes, made cookies.
And now my day is nearing its death. I wish you all a good night. Don't have bad dreams, and wake up singing. You are more loved by this little girl than you will be by many of the people you will ever meet in the entirety of your life.
From a dream. A lovely dream. Someone was playing me the song 'It Had To Be You' by Harry Connick Jr. Such a nice song. Such a nice dream...
And then, I got up.
I was humming the song. My family was grumpy. The usual morning grumpiness. It was okay though; I'm used to being the only bird chirping at 7:00 am. We were in a hurry to get out the door--more grumpiness. We arrived on time for my mom's appointment, but missed my first class all together. Even more grumpiness, and a little on my side too. I really do like Latin. But, there was nothing I could do, so I satisfied myself by dissecting two fish. It was icky, but we did it outside, which, even though I was shivering from the cold breeze, made the experience sort of actually enjoyable. When we were finished, I had no lunch, so I settled for wondering aimlessly, looking for my mother to beg food from. To my greatest pleasure, her and my brother had gone to Arby's and brought me back some food to snack on. Then, I picked flowers. Beautiful little flowers--the kind that remind you of orchids, but much more delicate. They were a lovely shade of lavender, which faded in the center to white. I picked a bouquet, and, after trying various different methods, finally managed to tie it with a long piece of grass.
I tried learning how to sign a new song, but we ran out of time. I volunteered in ASL 1, though. They took a test. While waiting for them to finish, I discovered that there are 19 hanging stars,13 door handles, 12 lights, 6 air vents, 5 light switches and 4 windows in the classroom. I helped someone with their presentation.
Then, I went home.
And back to sleep. I wasn't really tired. Actually, I think I slept about a quarter of the time I spent in my bed. I just thought. When I decided I should get up, I went on a run. 2 miles. I wanted it to be a sprint, but I wasn't feeling very motivated. It didn't turn out as well as I hoped. I ate dinner when I came home. Did the dishes, made cookies.
And now my day is nearing its death. I wish you all a good night. Don't have bad dreams, and wake up singing. You are more loved by this little girl than you will be by many of the people you will ever meet in the entirety of your life.
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